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I have a weird and twisted relationship with a very beautiful, kind hearted Sri Lanakn Tamil and I am still madly in love with him. I met him when i was doing my clincals in a hospital emergency department and he was a doctor here. We bumped into eachother a few times and always smiled at each tother, I caught him watching me and I was always staring at him as well. We had instant chemistry that I had never experienced before. He always laughed and joked with me, and everything felt so comfortable. We never exchanged details all I really knew was his name and that he was moving from Sydney to the country. I finised my prac and went straight home to add him on facebook. He was so shocked that I remember his name but thrilled at the same time. We messaged constantly for months and months and talked on the phone. He told me everything about his life, his family, his religion and he told me from the beginning he was single but was being arranged for marriage and we could only be friends. We met up and had a magical few days together, I fell madly in love with him. Every time we met up it was always a secret he would fly in for the weekend and make up all of these lies so that we could meet up. He told me that if his family ever found out he was seeing a girl he would be disowned and bring shame and embarrassment to his family, I accepted this and was happy to continue as is. I drove to his house in the country and spent a weekend with him (the best weekend of my life). In this time one of his patients noticed a girl enter his house, the next time the patient went to his work she brought it up and said he was seeing girls late at night. He works with his uncle so this was a very big deal, he managed to brush it off and said the patient must have been confused and it never happened. From that weekend onwards we had many many many fights. He was scared of being caught with me or his family finding out, He always said he didnt want to hurt me or for me to miss out on a relationship with another man because we could never be together. He always tried to distance himself and stop us from talking but it never worked we are crazy about eachother and its very hard to stop talking/ seeing someone you love. I am crazy in love with him and i would rather suffer than not talk to him. I met up with him only a few weeks ago and it was a very difference experience. He told me( after 2 years of waiting) he had a marriage proposal. A doctor back in Srilankan, Their parents had met and we're happy, and he met the girl on skype and everything is going ahead. He is waiting to go to srilankan for the engagement process and then we will not be able to talk any more. I feel so hut and upset and cheated by all of this. I thought the longer we would spend together the more he would want to be with and eventually he would want to be in a relationship. I never really believed he would enter in to an arranged marriage with a girl he doesn't even know. I have never felt love like this before, I have never cared about someone like this before. I have been suffering depression and axiety as a result of this, I cant comprehend or accept that soon i will not be able to talk to him or that I will never see him again. I never imagined my life like this. I am very open minded. I am an Aussie born girl to european parents. I am accepting of all races and religions. I find it difficult to accept that my skin colour, religion, culture is the reason I cant be with the man I love. I just wish that everything wasnt hidden, if we could have been together without all the hiding and secrets it could have run its course. We could have had a proper shot at a relationship to see if worked or not. For the rest of my life i am going to always regret that I couldnt be with him. I will always be biter that he is marrying another woman.

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